is a very hard thing to do. SB has decided she most definitely doesn’t want to play the violin any more. i am feeling more dumped and devastated by this than i thought i would. i aim to educate with SB so that she follows her dreams and desires. it is true that there are a lot of similarities between us, so perhaps i over empathise, but there are lots of differences – gym and ballet for a start! so i always have known that she will carve her own path. but her early joy in the violin was a joy for me too, and i guess i mapped out a future where we would play in orchestras together like my mum and me – something that brings me fantastic memories of joy. in fact my whole musical childhood is a joy for me. Her wanting to stop is a full stop to that joy. and she def wants to stop. so, being obviously more autonomous than i gave myself credit for, thats what we are doing, and i managed not to cry in front of her as well!! she is still keen to carry on music in the form of piano and recorder, but my heart was given to the violin! ANd you know, she was actually good at it. she had a lovely posture, hold and tone, and did it reasonably effortlessly – allowing far less practice! SO i feel that i have failed her somewhere, for her to definitely want to give up something she is good at means to me that i haven’t managed to show her the joy, maybe i am too intense? i dunno, but somewhere i have lost her the spark. i actually think it was at melrose last year, as she has been less enthusiastic since then. aargh it was supposed to be fun, and yet i ruined things for my own child. i sobbed all the way back from work about this too. useless facilitator, null points
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