Monthly Archives: October 2011

a state of waiting

i am waiting to hear that my cousin’s partner has died. She was diagnosed with inoperable brain cancer shortly after my sister died and it seems that the processing of one is blended into the other. I have found myself to be quite emotionally labile during this time. Currently she is holding out, but in a coma. She has had a far swifter move from managing to hospice than my poor sister did. I hope for a swift and peaceful passing.

But, other things have been going on this week! SB had an opticians appointment, who made her eyes approx -4 [approx cos i can't remember, not because he didn't know :) ] She and BB had their usual groups and clubs. Great step forward in that BB thinks she is ready to consider judo :) [ i am a firm believer that girls especially should do a martial arts/self defence ] and, even more surprisingly beavers!! So am feeling a bit positive about BB going out into the world. One of my worries is that she is desperate to be friends, but not got the automatic knowledge of how, and is v shy about it. I do remember worrying about SB, as I had to introduce her to everyone, but she seems better now, so hopefully with help and encouragement…

Home ed has happened. Well, definitely SB has got through some ‘normals’ and with that practice for music theory exam [slightly worried = grade 3 - eek!] and ballet exam [ ditto, grade 4] . Me working such a lot has meant a nose dive in quality music practice, but hoping to get back on track with that too [except the clarinet, as tooth still too painful] lots of la redoute trousers arrived – always good as slimfit :) BB has done reading practice and music theory, and lots of starfall and poisson rouge. she has had a wobbly over maths as there were too many boxes!

Going out and about also happened, as well as the usual things. On Weds we went to G’s this was supposed to be for clarinet lesson, but due to moratorium currently on clarinet playing, we had piano and recorder instead also music theory. As the exchange, i did some sciencey stuff with the youngest ones – we smashed egg shells and mixed with vinegar in 2 conical flasks, and in 2 others we placed some small marble fragments. we covered the tops with balloons and waited to see what happened. Pleasingly it worked :) and a gas was produced which we convincingly tested as carbon dioxide. Afish had an egg in vinegar to take home and observe, and sbiff had a chicken bone in vinegar. Yes :) we were happily joined by the fishes, breaking from their school-run. I also did a mosaic sticking craft with the younger ones, a bit of music theory with them and there was lots of playing :) Instead of a lunchtime departure, due to dbiff at home, we stayed and decorated masks for a bit. On our return home we were joined by mil and pil after a hospital appt. we demonstrated our carbon dioxide making, and then sb demonstrated making oxygen with hydrogen peroxide and manganese dioxide [again with balloon over top] . felt like a proper home educator :)

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SB also had HE multisport, which she has always really enjoyed, but apparently it isn’t as good with the new ppl as it was with Chris. Will see whether it is just ‘different’ and she will start to really enjoy it or not. Another HE group activity quite new was the new forest group, the made fires and attempted to cook far too much pizza in an earth oven :) both said they really enjoyed it.

getting a grip

I did chat to SB, who says she knows I work,and would love me to be at home more, but loves me for who I am, and that I do lovely things with them etc etc. That girl has a heart of gold :)

SO the weekend! I was at home the weekend, and we got up, did some home ed and then went to the library for the big read presentations. SB and BB are keen supporters of the library. Was very proud of BB that she went upnon her own without SB for the certificate and medal. a big step forwards for her. When we got back DH was painting the big window and both girls did some maths and i did some sewing. We all played board games BB’s fab labybird game that she made in fimo s a copy from poisson rouge, and supermariobrothers ds, which i am entirely hopeuless at, and bth girls scream for me to turn myself into a bubble!! SB then went off for pretty much the rest of the day. She had a swimming party with her friend in guides and then was invited back to her house. BB felt a bit lost without her. We agreed on a craft to do, but it was one of those annoying packet crafts that you can’t actually do straight off. grrrrrrrrr. i have made a fix for it, at least part of it, so it can be started on. instead we finishd a santa craft we have had for ages, played games and watched something :) – mostly dinosaur and natural history progs. A lovely relaxing bath and she went off to bed as SB came home. To be fair this is a fairly sanity edited version of the day as BB was finding most things a trauma so we had a number of emotional high and lows.

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Next day we concentrated on doing things we enjoyed with each other. we were outside in the garden, BB did some crafting and then a science experiment. She wanted to use her cuttlefish bone for something, so we put rough chunks in vinegar and also more powdered in another and popped a cork in the top, which got pushed out. we tested the gas and it was carbon dioxide.

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After lunch we then went out to a 40′s village shindig and met merry, zoe and girls there, had a wander round, learnt something, chatted and played and generally had lovely time whilst the sun was shining. BB got a cute ladybird pendant watch, which now doesn’t seem to work despite change of battery. will try a new battery. Definitely ice cream weather :) home to chill out and watch dr who and the new merlin all snuggled together. :) :) DH had put second coat of paint on windows too so all right with the world.

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this boring blog

more or less a Smiths title, certainly you can hum behind it. I am kind of wondering whether to keep on blogging. Not that I don’t want to blog, and I really would like a record of what happens. But mostly because I am working so much that DH truly is the home educator, and he just isn;t blogging any more :(

He and the girls did a fair bit this week. SB was fairly productive on the home ed front, BB did some. but nore interestingly that that thy had 2 great home ed trips out. Neither of which i went to :( tho had hoped to go to either at some point. ws working :( Think my girls will look back on their childhood, and I am going to be the working nagging parent :( I know someone has to, but the hours it takes up, and the huge stress levels are just making this a bit of a nightmare time, and I feel their childhoods just slipping away from me.

Anyway, amongst other things they went to Hedingham castle for an early mediaeval re-enactment based session. it was fab apparently. they also went tobogganing on an indoor slope. Also fab, apparently.

Do I sound jaded. I am. I am heartsick.