Ahhhhhhhhhh

How nice it is to get home! It has been a bad one!

My cousin died yesterday with lots of family around her. It is such a terrible loss of one so young, with so much fun in her. Finding out on duty in the hospital with nowhere to run and hide [or free time] was not brilliant. She never married, and spent most of her life living with and then helping to care for her mother until her death. She has been a woman full of joy and enthusiasm, eagerly visiting and passionate about the lifeboat charity – which she has supported well, and tracing our family tree [which will now be passed to me]. She had many nieces and nephews to give attention too, but was happy to be single. Although she had struggled for many years with presumed SLE, it is a huge shock to us all that this admission [one in many many] has proved fatal. When she was transferred over the weekend to a bigger ITU, all the family were aware that really hope was over, enabling her sister to come from Germany and say her last goodbyes. Goodbye Anne.

To the future

No more 24 hour shifts now until June [well, I do have one in a fortnight, but a registrar on call with me from 5] so should be able to head home and get some kip]

so today, got home at 10, just intime to catch all the beansheading for siniging group, so joined them. It was fun, and SB enjoyed it, despite being way the oldest there. Chris’s mate – a homedad teacher with 10 monther- was there, and they had arranged to feed ducks together, so i joined in. Ducks were full though. I mostly fed BB as she has been ravenous today. Must find out about the village rainbows. I invited homedad in, and got chatting and SB fussed over his DD. So went well.

We then played and tidied home ed room for Karen O and 2 of her boys. A fun time was had. I enjoyed showing off house and general chat. The children got on and played well, and BB was coo-ed over!! Next time will try and tempt Merry as well! We have some piccies to add if Karen OK??

I fed BB some more – about 50th feed – and then made up stories about Maggie and the ferocious beast. Not very good as kept falling asleep, and I thought they were prob. gobbledegook – asked SB, and she confirmed this, so tried reading books instead to keep me on track. in view of this, I am prob not the best one to read bed time stories, so chris doing this while have got tea ready. I have a friend coming over later – so will socialise well and then fall in a collapsed heap into bed!

thoughts of the day: I feel odd that i haven’t done any of my normal stuff with SB and BB for quite a while now [2 weeks] so hopeing with an ease on the rota, and hopefully some sleep, that I can catch up at the weekend, and gradually settle into a better pattern. I actually miss singapore maths, and phonics, webland and the rest. Other thought, is although my job is commpromised if the gynae ward closes, I just can’t face moving again, and I am already thinking of this house as my home – so thats good. WIll just have to agitate to keep ward viable!