I got quite upset actually at the hallowen party. Something that was said to me as an almost aside about me not being the main parent – and certainly not intentionally meant to upset me. I find it really hurtful. I am at home with the girls only 3 days out of 7, but there are the evenings as well, and I really try to make them count.
Maybe I wouldn’t mind so much if I didn’t miss the girls so much, and find the work life balance off as it is. I know I am devoting time and attention, and am sure I am a really here for them parent. Why am I burbling? I guess it is cos I worry that my children will grow up and agree that I wasn’t there for them, or loved them less than I could have done because I work.
I guess it is also because SB has in the last week started running to Chris first again, after us being equals, and that hurts, even though anticipated and expected. I love them both so much.