suddenly the house seems very much quieter without FrB. it may be a quieter with 2 rather than 3 kids thing, but I think it was that FrB was quite a noisy kid 
. SB has written a lovely tribute to her on the blog, and has had a great year, but is older, getting on with things, and thinking that they will get to keep in touch, so taking it ok despite spending the last year together. BB is, as anticipated, devastated. she has cried several times and really misses FrB. One of the things it took me a while to imperfectly get used to was the high octane emotionality of their relationship. they were having crazy fun together one minute and shouting and misinterpreting each other the next. it gradually got more crazy fun and less shouty, but it was always noisy. SO BB has lost her best playmate for the last 6 months and is feeling down. we can’t move the lego, cos it was frb game, and it makes her cry to think about it, sylvanians makes her cry, and she is bored without the wildness. Tho SB more or less willing, she is now a teen, and not really such a regular crazy playmate, it is more of a special effort [and I have asked her to make it]. if we let her spend all her time on the computer, i guess it would be alright, as M and E as well as friends B and R are there to skype and minecraft, however i do like her to have some ‘real life’ too. We discussed this, and she does agree, but it is hard.
SB has been steadily morphing teenwards. She loves listening to music on ipod as prob fav thing number one! But we have been looking to the future about home ed, and what she wants to achieve. SHe def wants to go to university, though not a definite what to actually study yet, and so wants to get a few exams. She def wants to do french and has signed up for classicla civ, which came a bit out of the blue and we are contemplating everything – there will be a mission statement to follow! She has certainly got ready with a tidy desk and a folder and enthusiasm . I guess this seems that it will be the first year of ‘real’ hard home ed!
SO, to help with both of them, this week we have got back to some structure, some home ed and lots of hugs, love, laughter and craft. we have gone to MIL to cheer her up as i think the enormity of loss has dawned on her and DH and DH has been and sorted things for her too. We have also played a lot of games. Deep breaths for all moving on in different ways.