Monthly Archives: September 2010

or something like that. life carries on, and takes me further away from my last real touch with my sister, the last time she said words to me from her head, rather than the words i put into her mouth in mine. trying to do the ‘have fun today’ thing as she strove to stay alive, and i should put equal effort into enjoying it while i can, and leaving the grieving for the evening. variable success, early days!

so today we did baking – cheese scones, watercolour painting, piano together, looked at magazines, ds-ed and the girls did a bit of home ed. yesterday we did baking – choc buns, gel pen painting, hama beading, assorted home ed things and wii. todays painting in the garden best, as able to breathe and be with. but actually shutting myself in a monastery strikes me as appealing currently.

but i did do better today.

yes, life is going on, i am at the fringes of it, and only a small amount of actual interaction from me possible! however, yesterday I made a huge push to get out to latinetc to meet my friends. I was worth doing, but used up all my energy for the rest of the day. Grief is hard work! [XX sisterXX]

i didn’t do science, but SB did latin, and the children all did fab artwork with egg shell mosaics. what a fab idea that was. BB doing a turtle, and SB an E with some additional paint. such different takes on how to do it as well. i mostly cuddled BB as she did hers. my kids don’t like me unhappy, and i think that is worse for them that Aunty Viv dying. I got to chill with v sensitive and lovely friends – thankyou x x

at home we did another fab djeco kit – the paul klee one, aimed at aged 10+ it took as a while to work out how to do it nicely, as i have no talents at all!! but really got us going with another technique, and today, when the girls have done the second one each, it is clear that they have learned a lot from it as well as it being really enjoyable – call it occupational therapy! so i bought some more craft kits…