i might have to have a bit of a blogging break. the things that i can’t talk about on blog as they are another person or peoples process are taking over huge swathes of my time, concern, and thought processes, and it feels just inadequate to not blog what is central to me.
BUT, before i decide what to do…
Easter weekend went v well, with lots of playing and fun with the whole family coming, and sis really enjoyed it. lovely to see the whole family, i over-catered wildly. i got to really connect with my nephew over what is happening around him, and sorted out counselling etc. we played lots of olympic wii with various relatives. lots of hugging with mum, dad took sb and nephew and actually played some real holes of golf – so v exciting!
girls are going through a bit more of an argumentative phase…
today i had a retrenchment day! felt things and info getting on top of me, which is a bit unfair of me, as i am an indirect participant but felt particular need to not leave home. did some seed stuff with girls and then wii olympics. some general messing about playing. BB got a new book
and loves it. so we are soaking some dwarf french beans and have painted some buckets today. BB really has a lovely way with paints! i partic loved her t-rex. we then finished the day with a treat and saw how to train your dragon in 3D. it was fab and i really enjoyed it. i then felt phenomenally guilty about feeling happy for a bit.
finished the day with BB spectacularly throwing up everyone.
Just wanted to say I am thinking of you loads and all that you are central to at the moment. I know you need to be supportive and caring to people who need you just now, but please know there are friends ready to support and love you when you need them. xxx
don’t ever feel guilty about snatching a few moments happiness, especially when it’s with your girls. Smiley mummy is good for them. (Nearly didn’t post this as don’t want to make you feel bad about when you aren’t happy with them, but felt it had to be said.) Hugs.